Jenna

Here I am...

Sitting on the floor of this stupid tomb about 400ft. behind the old abandoned LeBeau House.It smells like road kill in here..And considering I am soaked to the skin with rain..and my shoes are caked with all this red mud and fungus from my trip up here..I would kinda guess I smell like this place , too.

I can't think of anything else to do but sit here smoking one cigarette after another and curse myself for my damn foolishness.

I hang my head down and fold up my arms under my shirt to keep warm against the rain thats splashing against me in this worn out burial place.

I wish I was there in the main house with the others.Thats where I was suppose to be .

No...

Not really with them.

I was really suppose to be with Jenna.

But that was my fault...I caused us to spend the night apart like this...Foolish ,childish jealousy.

It all started four days ago when my best friend Brian came to me with an idea.

When he suggested that we get together with his brother Glenn and Shannon..Jenna and I..and of course he and his newest interest Tina...to head for the old LeBeau House for a night of scaring the girls close to us...I agreed...I wanted nothing more than to feel Jenna panic against me and hold me tight while I showed of my teenage bravery for the dark and unknown...She would feel as if I were her guardian against all evil within this wicked house so often spoken of.I would hold myself taller and maybe deepen my vioce to show my manliness.She would fall in love with me in this dark place..I knew she would.

But that was before we all piled into Glenns car to be on our way to this forgotten place.

And that was before the laugh that broke my heart.

It really wasn't his fault..Brian just has a sense of humor that is...well...funny.It was stupid joke really.

I must have heard it a hundred times.It was simply Brian trying to lighten the tenseness in the car.

But the moment I saw her eyes light up ,her face change rosy and her jaws go wide with a burst of clear laughter..

I felt my stomach lock up.

I had never seen anything so beautiful and the truth of everything had never seemed more clearer than when she put her head down and tried to pull her lips over her teeth in effort to conceal her outburst.She looked at sideways at me with those sweet eyes and flashed a forced grin.