All this worrying is starting to bring me down its slowing me down I'm not built to turn away, there is so much I fear so much to lose so much to gain to.
What is in my future I can not see, what will be of me tomorrow a insecure feeling lies in me. No one can understand of what I go through what life puts me through.
But one thing that I am sure of is this love for you.
Its been so many nights that I have waited for this dream to come true now I am living in it and I feel it is slipping away between my fingers and I don't know what to do.
I am so afraid of losing him again he can be so close but yet so distant I am confused.
does he love me or tells me just what I want to hear? Does his heart speak truths?
Sometimes I believe I might be trying to heard to reach something that might not be there
all along or maybe just not at this time. I would sacrifice all I have to keep him by my side but maybe all I have is not enough sometimes.. This love is taking over every thought I own and maybe its not healthy at all. I peak with my heart and not my mind, my brain don't like that a bit, Like a fool I might seem when I say things before I think, but isn't that what true love is all about in the first place. I take one look at him and I cant seem to believe that you are here with me, so I slowly start to back away so when I awake the fall wont be so great.. I have longed his touch for so long that now it is just all to good to be true, I don't know why I place the blame on him when I am the one running away from the truth, I am scared of feeling such great love for one person I have never felt this way and there is nothing that I can do or say to make me feel a different way. This love is so tense that I have to take time to breath in and breath out cause my heart fills up with such strength , I am so lost with out him I worship the ground he walks on, every free moment I have breathes his kisses his fingers that run down my back the way only he can find the exact spots to drive me to insanity and then bring me back, it all comes back to me and I have to take a deep breath so I can breath again.. If everyone had a love like this there would be no war only peace, His body close to mine feels so right he was meant for me I honestly believe.
I have been quite around the world met so many different people in different places but only he can for fill the emptiness that has for so long needed a cure in my chest..
Somehow you have taken over every thing I have ever believed in or not,
Promise me baby that you will never feed me lies cause here is my bear heart pure and cleaned, I need you to see, I need you to believe when I say that you mean it all to me.
I will be here for you today and until the end, just look into my eyes cause they will never lie even though my face turns red.. Like a starfish as the waves brings it on to land in the sand, life brought you on board and into my heart. On shore.
I am sure of this love, that I know because you are all I need to keep this smile that brightens up my soul. I just hope that one day I can fill you heart as you have filled mine
And you will recognize the melody of pure true love. You are my star fish and forever I will treasure you in my chest drawer of irreplaceable treasures guard it with my life, cause you will always be here by my side in my heart until I take my very last breath.