The Lifeguard Stand

The phone rang several times and as I expected, there was no answer, there couldn't be. I could feel the love pour from me as it used to during our time together. She used to tell me she would never be happy without me, and I guess I still needed to hear that. I knew it was impossible that I would ever see her again. She was gone forever it was impossible she was still alive. I looked at the old ships clock on the wall, and now had about a half an hour to get showered and dressed. I entered the bathroom and started the shower. I always checked out my face after a day on the beach, looking for how much burn the sun inflicted on me. As I looked in the mirror, I could see I had a nice amber glow about my skin. When I looked closer, I could see something in my hair, not just one thing, but also several small pieces of Jesse's hot pink straw hat. I paused to collect my thoughts, what was going on? It was too much for me to understand, so I jumped in the shower and washed all of my confusion down the drain.

My guests came that evening, and we all had a good time. We talked late into the night, and never did I tell any of them about my day's experience, It was too personal, I never felt so good as when I was with Jesse, she always made me feel complete and the moments we had together were ours alone, no one could ever understand. Finally all of my guests left about 1:00 am, and I immediately went into my bedroom and fell fast asleep, hoping I could bring myself back to that moment where Jesse and I were so happy together.

Morning came, I got up and as usual prepared to myself to spend the day on the beach. I got ready and walked down to the edge of the ocean. It was about 10:30 am and I felt good that I had the whole day ahead of me. Again I sat there in the sand, still confused, and looked down the beach to see the lifeguard stand in the distance. Yesterday was confusing to me, so I decided to stroll down there again. This time the same thing happened. As I got closer to the stand, I felt the uneasy feeling, my senses going blank and there she was again. Walking out of the water with that beautiful smile. This time I knew I was not in a dream; I was actually reliving the most romantic beautiful day that Jesse and I had ever had. As yesterday, I enjoyed every minute with her; we talked about different things, hugged, kissed, and ended out day by sitting in the lifeguard stand until the darkness sent us on our different paths. Again as I saw her fade into the darkness, I headed in the other direction. As I got far enough from the lifeguard stand, I re-entered my present world in the same manner. It was still 10:30 am and I sat on the beach and realized what had really happened. When two people are in love as much as Jesse and I were, you always in some way leave a mark on the world. In our case, the day we spent next to that lifeguard stand so very long ago, was filled with so much love that it left an impression on the earth and nature itself.