"Felicia, wait we must talk." He yelled from my patio door.

"Go to hell, Billy."

"No, wait come back here."

I stopped turned and went back through my patio door. I stopped in my kitchen and grabbed my old college buddy Jack Daniel's and two glasses, and calmly walked to my patio door.

" Billy, go home." I screamed at him

With that I ran to my car got in and drove off. I had nowhere to go at first. I had no idea where I was going to end up. On that fateful October night my journey began. Knowing then what I know now I would have stayed home and cuddled with my bottle and some ice cream. As I drove I realized where I was so, I went off to talk with one of my girlfriends, Christy. She would help me. She would talk some sense into me. I sped off towards her apartment. When I got there I went to here door and banged on it. There was now answer. I tried the knob?locked. The fates were toying with me. I felt as in one moment I had lost it all.

"Christy, damn it Christy where are you?" I yelled at a locked door.

Ever notice that once chance moment in your life changes the course forever. I have always thought that if she were home to comfort me. If she were there I would have never embarked on this journey. Although I have learned a lot on this journey, the pain that I had to endure has all but killed me. This was one of the many turning points in this journey. The one moment that would have shortened the journey. If only the fates would let things be.