The truth

look at us now in our brick houses and our fur coats. Remember what it was like when i was younger they say. We had it bad they say. Now living in their 3 bedroom suites they cant look us in the eyes and tell us the same lie. We wonder why the youth is getting younger and more dependent. They are becoming more diviant and less mature. We are a generation of childeren raised by children. With the greed and desire of america today along with technology, kids are no longer raised by their parents, but by thier own peers. Parents are forced to work long hours and mabey even more than one job driven by the want to be normal. I am so tired of the pain. Frued explains several levels of being, but he drasticly underestimated the mind. Our of the millions of simple people there along the way comes several briliant people. I think the most desireable part of a person is their ability to be real. why even try to act fake. its something that baffels me.

We have a question about life, and instead of asking the people most dear to us we now send our questions to magazines. I quote "My boyfriend wants to have sex and i dont want to so instead he wants oral sex, what should i do." Why not ask a magazine company anyways. They know all about you, they buy the stats and the readers. Or you could ask someone who has a personal interest in your well being, for instance your parents. Fuck it though, why not just do what you want. Its not hard, if you want to do it if you dont, dont. its like science.

Sometimes i find myself wandering for no reason. I feel compelled to do something without even knowing what it is yet. My patients is wearing thin though, and i cant help but notice how much time seems to have been wasted. I think that i have figgured out that i need to change something, but i dont want it to be a petty thing like trying to stop people from smoking or drinking or trying to make people start. Or working in a soup kitchen, or donating money to the poor. I want something that is going to take a drastic effect on every persons life it comes accross. It seems that everything is a war today. There is always a group of people trying to take freedoms from another group of people. This may be done in more suttle ways than you think. Who am i to tell someone else they cant do something. do i own them. am i better than anyone in any way. Some people think they are. i like to put things into place, and i try to make things run a lot less smoothy than they should. I like to test the bounds of reality. I also believe in the long, prolonged, derangement of the scences to not only obtain the unknow but to escape from our fake reality.

If you have something to say, step up and say it. The worst mistakes of my life were done by keeping my mouth shut. The worst punishment is not knowing what would have happened anyways. Try and look past the black and white aria, i hope you feel good being safe but there is a big difference betweet being and living. I feel most alive when im right there on the edge of reality and the unknown. I get there any way possible.