Shadow Prince (Book Excerpt) by Jennifer Dunne
Page 3 of 7 She was dry. She was safe. Her racing heart slowed to normal. And yet, she
suddenly missed the comfort of having Reynart's warm arm around her. Silly. He
was nothing more than a delusion, a figment of a hallucination she'd
experienced while in a coma. Yet, even the illusion of peace and safety
sometimes seemed better than the constant stress of holding her fragile psyche
together.
She focused her attention on Donald's earnest expression. She hadn't heard a
word he'd said, but he didn't seem to have noticed her lapse.
"Angie, you're scared of something that never happened. You can't allow a
coma hallucination to rule the rest of your life."
She glared at him, hating his well-meaning words. He had no idea how much
that damn hallucination ruled her life. She wasn't afraid of rain because of
something that had happened in a dream.
The doctors had explained it all to her. The nightmare images had come from
her own brain. On some level, she'd realized that her parents had been killed
in the storm-caused car accident that left her in a coma. In an effort to
shield her from the truth, her subconscious dreamed up the hallucination.
No, she wasn't afraid of rain because of what she'd dreamed about it. She
was afraid because it triggered episodes like the one she'd just had, sending
her back into the dream.
Which was why she had to leave. Now. She had to get out of Dino's, before
Donald said something that triggered a full attack. If she could just get back
to her studio, she could channel her reaction into a painting. She might not be
able to control the hallucinations, but at least she'd found a way to profit
from them.
Donald would profit, too, if he could sell more of her work. Her fear
transformed into anger.
"You know my fears inspire my paintings, but that's okay with you. As long
as I don't let my fears inconvenience a gallery showing. Is that what you're
saying, Donald? Are you really concerned for me, or are you just worried about
losing your fifteen per cent?"
He started, obviously expecting a different reaction. His frown smoothed
out, and he spoke with the slow, careful words used to calm angry dogs or
irrational children.
"You got your start selling illustrations at fantasy conventions. Of course
your paintings are imaginative. They sell so well because your subjects show
recognizable emotions, even in fantastic settings. That doesn't mean the
emotions are real." He dropped his voice and glanced away. "Or the people."
"The people ... You're frightened of Reynart!"
He laughed weakly, then ruined the effect by gulping half of his cocktail in
a single swallow. "That's ridiculous. I am not frightened of an imaginary
character you put in all of your paintings."
"He's not in all of them."
"Yes he is. Even if he's not visible, there's a strange shadow on the wall,
or a blacker piece of darkness, and I know he's there. Hiding. Waiting."
Her heart softened, and Angelique leaned forward to cover Donald's hand with
hers. Far from doubting the truth of her nightmares, her dream images tapped
into his nightmares, too. Maybe that was the real secret of her success. A
little white lie wouldn't hurt Donald any, and would soothe his masculine
pride. "The doctor said painting the scenes from my hallucination was good
therapy. And you know yourself that they sell better than the other pieces I've
tried."
He slugged back the rest of his drink. "And they'd sell like hotcakes in
Seattle. But I'm through arguing with you about it. Take it or leave it, but if
you turn this chance down, you get yourself another agent." Copyright© 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002 Jennifer Dunne, sffworld.com. All rights reserved. No part of this may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the author.
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