Has things changed

It has been a fair time, since I had wrote in this book, why write in, it might be a question that will be answered. At this present time, I am sitting at the kitchen table, confused an a lot of things, but well knowing little, some say little, some say, "John you could be a great writer" yes this sounds interesting, but how do I say that I know where I am right now. Is me, in a bottom-less well, so I am always striving to a position there that I can take control of myself. (But How), My saying it to myself, is if it can be done, than I do not know anyone else that could do it better than me. So to keep on going is the only thing that can be done. As you can read or will figure out the person in the book, at the first or the beginning of this, is dead and gone.

John has evolved, changed his way of thinking; you will be the only one to really know if I am 100% in my right mind. As for my boys, they are doing fine, Mike is enjoying school, yes, I was surprised too, but I taught him positive things in life and to be careful in his block-head way, he understands for Chris, he started off fighting his way into places in this new school, after a trip or two for me to the office to explain him, to the principal, the trouble has much stopped that and I told Chris to take no "crap" either. One day this kid, was teasing Chris; two grades lower, by the end of the day, Chris had enough and called this kid off the school grounds, yes, Chris was going to make a few adjustments to this kids make-up. So, in comes John to talk to the "top dog" at school, the way I seen it was they were going to discipline Chris but not the other child, once John straighten this out, all was good again.

Chris has had his fair share of stuff to fight against but so, for he is winning, I don’t know why but he still has a bed wetting problem, that I tell Chris, that this is all of our (family) problem, not just his, in an attempt to build his confidence. I really believe this to be true. I did get him medication for it, but that to me, is the easy way out, it is something he just has to work through in life for his family to support him is the greater item to offer. Now as for Matt, some might say I spoil him, I do not believe them, for he is my last son, and I will always treat him different, as for me spoiling him, I think not, but now to get to the last of this part in the story. Rita, she is a young woman, full of problems that she relies on me too much sometimes, but I am there for her, as long as this can take me. The boys enjoy her company, as for me, I am still too confused to say anything yet, I just know life goes on, and I will be there.