How could I have been so blind.
You are the first person I can really trust my heart to.
And when the time came to trust I went the other way.
I believed that you would rather have fun than commit to me.
You told me over and over I have nothing to fear.
But just when you say that I realize I am afraid.
Not just of being betrayed but of loving again putting myself on the line once more.
You say she is just your sister but wasn't I that once too?!?
You know me well enough to know I have my jealous strikes.
It's not that I mean to they just happen.
Perhaps I was just envious of her and the fact that she is closer to you than I am.
I have your heart but she has your body with her right now.
Maybe I should stop making excuses for myself and just admit I was wrong.
But maybe now you no that I can disappoint you and let you down and prove you wrong.
You left without a goodbye and now I'm crying for my childish acts.
For not believing you, for my insecure ways.
Old habits die hard what else can I say?
Except that I love you and even angels have faults.