Wednesday, February 9, 2005
firefox and writing...

I've been using firefox for the last few weeks. In general I prefer it to explorer, but it has a nasty tendancy to not open text boxes properly... Hence the lack of recent blogs. Anyway I won't mention the rugby, except to say I was pleased to read about welsh fans castrating themselves in surprise (it's true, check out http://www.sky.com/skynews/article/0,,30000-13297624,00.html)...

To quote Hannibal from the A-Team, I love it when a plan comes together.

I've been writing. Quite a lot for me in fact. Over 1200 words today. In fact I took a piece I started a couple or months ago and decided to expand it. It was only when I was well into it that I realised it was exactly what my sci-fi story needed. So it seems I wrote another 1200 words on my novel without even realising it! :D

Posted by Martin Austwick 2005-02-09 18:28:47

Tuesday, February 1, 2005
Thankyou sir

When I got home today after another hard days shooting (this time I didn't miss everything if you're interested) I realised I had no food in the house and really didn't feel like attacking an unhung pheasant so I went to the shop.

So far I bet you're wondering why the hell I'm bopring you with this aren't you. Stick with me, I do have a point and I'm sure I'll get there eventually.

I did my usual trick of wandering aimlessly (rather than shooting aimlessly) until something took my eye. Within a few nano-seconds (I was hungry) my basket was full and I wended my way (isn't wended a wonderful word. I'd love to find out the etymology (That's a hint btw)) to the check out and carefully dumped my proto-dinner on the conveyor belt. The guy scanned my stuff and I lovingly jammed it all into a bag, I paid and as he handed me my change he said...

"Thankyou sir"

And that is the moment you have stuck with this blog to get to. That my loyal friends is the aforementioned point.

Ok it's not. But it is the start of the point if you get my meaning. Incidentally if you have got my meaning, does that mean I am without meaning? An interesting question I'd say, but not the one for today's brief scurry though the land of the Blog. Oh no, that is the fact that a guy in a supermarket called me "sir"

Now I have nothing against being called sir, it makes me a little nervous and makes me feel as if I am about to be arrested but other than that I quite like it. The oddity is that it never used to happen at all. Now I realised it happens quite a lot.

When did this transition take place? When did I go form being the irritating kid you patronise to the bloke you call "sir"? I missed it! I'm still the kid inside, I wanted to let our frined in the supermarket know he'd made a mistake.

I'm not a grown up, I can't be!

Of course my daughter would disagree. But then she likes to argue.

I have no idea where she gets it from...

Posted by Martin Austwick 2005-02-01 13:18:57

Sunday, January 30, 2005
Trust and pain

I recently got an email form my sister.

Not unusual I hear you say, but that's because you don't know the relationship I have with my sister. I've spent the vast majority of the last few years not talking to her for various reasons, but S and I went to see her just before Christmas and I'm glad we did. Anyway whether my sis and I are talking again isn't really relevant, the email she sent me is.

Well kinda

It was one of these, "answer questions about yourself and send it to people you care about" emails. I normally bin them, but as it had come from her I decided to do it. One of the questions was are you too trusting?

And that my friends is today's lesson! :D

I think I am. I am kinda glad I am, but I know I set myself up to get hurt. Time and time again people prove to me that they aren't what I thought. People I thought I could rely on prove I shouldn't have been relying on them. When I am feeling at my most self indulgent it feels as if I spend my life beeing fucked over by people I trust and recovering enough to do it all again. All that seems to make it worthwhile is that one or two people that I really do care about seem to feel the same way.

And of course I'm talking to my big sis again. She has three amazing daughters They are even more stunning than she is (don't tell her I said that will you?) and I can't wait to see them again.

Now does anyone want to take me to the pub and buy me beer?

Posted by Martin Austwick 2005-01-30 16:09:54

Sunday, January 30, 2005
The internet, goals and failed targets...

Quite a title! Let's start with the internet. It's an odd place. Sometimes I spend hours here, sometimes I look at the clock and wonder where the hell the day has gone. There just doesn't seem to be enought time to see all the sites I want to see, talk to all the people I want to talk to and read all the posts on the forums I visit. Sometimes (like today) I quickly scan down a few posts, check my email and then sit wondering what the hell else to do. I guess it's my mood.

If you haven't noticed I am quite a moody person. I can be quite self involved and if I let myself it affects the rest of my life. Odd really because when I am feeling extrovert I really can be the lfe and soul of the party. It wouldn't really be a problem if it didn't affect the rest of my life too. I have written about 500 words this week. despite a target of 5000. So I guess Owen gets another week. I'm going to be buying a lot of beer at this rate. I've also missed out on all the other targets I've set myself this week. I'm making a set of kitchen knives at the moment, at least I should be. I have one finished, one about half finished and one roughed out.

I suppose I should accept I'm never going to get rich doing this. I finally gave in and started doing some agency work in London again. The landlord will be so pleased...

Posted by Martin Austwick 2005-01-30 07:03:57

Sunday, January 23, 2005
I forgot...

to mention.

The duck was lovely. I made my own Hoi-sin sauce which was great too and my own pancakes which were only ok. So for a first attempt I am quite pleased. I know what I did wrong with the pancakes so next time it should be stunning!

I need to shoot more ducks now...

Posted by Martin Austwick 2005-01-23 18:45:16