Sunday, October 9, 2005
That girl

Every straight man and lesbian has one. It's the one person who got away, not for want of trying or wanting - it just wasn't meant to be. Worse than that though, she is one of the people who will remain in your subconscious for the rest of your natural life and every once in a while you'll get an echo. It may be you catch another girl's eye and for a moment it's her, or you'll be in a situation that drags out a long forgotten memory - either way your screwed. A touch blunt but you get my point, you will not ever shake her, at least that is my belief. I've tried every means I can think of and she's still there. Now don't get me wrong I liked her - that's normally the point, heck I don't even mind the odd bout of nostalgiabut no means no -even if your subconscious won't ler her go.

What's often strange about That girl is she isn't special, or at least not so anyone else notices it. She isn't an object of lust like a screen siren or a supermodel, nor is she a caricature from a TV show, she is for lack of a worse tag - the girl next door. The one who ticks all the boxes, even the ones you didn't see on the sheet. Unfortunately she's also all in your head now, nothing but memories that don't seem to wane. Damn That girl :)

Posted by Owen Jones 2005-10-09 22:37:39

Sunday, October 9, 2005
Being alright

I'm not sure whether we are wetwired with this fatalistic attitude but how come all major problems we face are immediately understood as being a position we can make 'alright'. Now I'm not a head-doctor and the one I did date told me I was worrying about nothing, but are we permanently anaesthetised to the more long, and FATAL, term issues of life and death? It must be some kind of species self-protection mechanism to cope with absolutely anything, 'never mind Dave you'll neverge laid again but it's alright'. I mean seriously when in the hell didyou look at something and go'That's bloody terrible, he/she/it will never recover from that' - it doesn't happen very often and even then I'd put good money on someone believing the situation is recoverable. Is admiting 'defeat' (excuse the simplistic term) something that our psyche and biology isn't prepared to do?

I ask these questions because I've been struggling with just such issues for the last few weeks. There is this world that exists outside the one I inhabit where exciting events occur, except I don't seem able to find a path to it - I know where it is and I know I've been there before but now all the roads are blocked. Despite this I believe that I have adapted to the world I inhabit and the other world seems further and further away. Like a dream that is so vivid when you first wake but as reality seeps in, the dream becomes more and more intangible and ephemeral. To say it is worrying is sometimes an understatement, but only when I'm nottelling myself it's 'alright'.

Posted by Owen Jones 2005-10-09 22:35:52

Sunday, October 9, 2005
Yesterday has been erased

Have you ever had one of those naps or long, indulgent sleeps where you wake up and nothing seems to fit. It happened to me this morning, I went to bed at about 6.15am having stayed up to watch Corrales vs Castillo II (very dubious shenanigans going on there if you ask me, definitely requires a third bout at a higher weight - light-middle if the scales on fight night were anything to goby) and also the early overs of the World XI vs Australia (what a crap concept sorry). I skipped right off to the land of nod instantly and had a vivid dream that is a touch haunting even now when I think of it. The thing is I'm sure I had all these plans, hang-ups and worries before hitting the sack but for the life of me I couldn't tell you what all of them were nor whether yesterday was of any relevance whatsoever. Now I'm a bit insular and backward so naturally I tend to go into the shell and start doodling on the walls, stuff about time and yesterday's connection to today,questions that I don't have the answer for. What I do know is - sometimes youdon't allow yourself to forget things you really should, you give yourself no choice and the world is all fresh and new as a result.

Posted by Owen Jones 2005-10-09 22:34:07

Saturday, October 8, 2005
So I'm back, from outer space

Or at the least, the inner world where madness occurs and the cycle for coming out the other side is very long and tedious.

With that in mind (no pun intended) my first foray back into the world of ranting begins with television replays. I watch a lot of live sport,a lot a lot, so coming into contact with these terrible beasties is a significant part of my viewing experience. That being said, and pre-empting those who may argue the corner - if he's out there, they provide a lot of useful in-game help. Please note the word 'in-game', myissue with those clowns up on high called directors who deem it necessary to show an incident from every conceivable angle while the LIVE action is going on. We are then treated to another replay of the stuff we missedduring the next break, which overruns and we're stuck in a vicious cycle. The replays also show the parochial bias within the director ofthe moving pictures on the shiny piece of glass in the corner. If it's a dirty Englishman trampling all over an unfortunate, honest-to-goodness Welshman who has fallen on thewrong side of a ruck - then it's obviously a Welsh director, if it's the first, honest offence caused by a Welshman which goes unpunished the the director is English. We all have eyes - except referees whose vision is controlled by the Devil of Grass on the seventh level of Twickenha... I mean Hellfor kicks - and can clearly see what occurs, replays are fora major incident not every knock on, usage of handbags or refereeviciously abusing his whistle (every game at the moment if you ask me) So here's the plan - let the player decide like the sky sports interface for other sports, have a replay option but continue the live feed uninterrupted. Oh wait I'm talkingabout the BBC, nevermind :)

Had a good laugh from the overpaid footballers today, England to win a WC LMFAO,after watching Wales win one of the most entertaining football games I've seen since Kevin Keegan coached NUFC,England looked like they should be ranked 109th :)

Posted by Owen Jones 2005-10-08 16:58:36

Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Truth in stories told

Ascorpion, being a very poor swimmer, asked a turtle to carry him on his back across a river. "Are you mad?" exclaimed the turtle. "You'll sting me while I'm swimming and I'll drown."

"My dear turtle," laughed the scorpion, "if I were to sting you, you would drown and I would go down with you. Now where is the logic in that?"

"You're right!" cried the turtle. "Hop on!" The scorpion climbed aboard and halfway across the river gave the turtle a mighty sting. As they both sank to the bottom, the turtle resignedly said:

"Do you mind if I ask you something? You said there'd be no logic in your stinging me. Why did you do it?"

"It has nothing to do with logic," the drowning scorpion sadly replied. "It's just my character."

Posted by Owen Jones 2005-09-14 17:16:52