Fair Thee Well

by
Jo Celine


I made the decision today.
I can't have you,
I won't have you.
Yes I feel badly.
I'm sorry
But I want my body back.
I have given my all to the others,
gladly, tenderly, unreservedly
no regrets.
Now I need, want, my own thoughts, space.
I come first now.
The time is near.
Yes I feel badly.
I've already cried your loss,
while pleading you go to someone else,
someone who is ready for you
someone who wants you.
I will do this thing,
with regrets
and forever more
wear that veil of guilt.
I'm sorry.
***
Relief,
joy.
Last night you left
in a gentle, sensual expulsion,
releasing me
from guilty action.
Thank you
and
Fair thee well.

now for the bilingual version

Fair Thee Well

I made the decision today.
I can't have you.
I won't have you.
Je n'en peux plus.
Yes I feel badly.
I'm sorry
mais comprends.
I want my body back.
Je veux le r'avoir.
I have given my all to the others,
avec joie, tenderly, unreservedly,
no regrets.
Now I need, want, my own thoughts, space.
Je sense le besoin,
que c'est le temps
de poursuivre mes pensées.
I come first now.
The time is near.
Yes I feel badly.
I've already cried your loss
while pleading you go to someone else.
Va-t-en.
Va ailleur.
To someone who is ready for you
someone who wants you
une nourrissière.
I will do this thing,
cette chose répugnante
cette action fatale
with regrets
and forever more
wear that veil of guilt.
D'avoir eu les mains sales
D'avoir arreté l'effleurement d'une vie
I'm sorry.
Je suis désoleé.

***
Relief,
joy,
last night you left
in a gentle, sensual expulsion
un soulagement
releasing me
from guilty action.
Thank you
et
avec amour

Fair thee well.