Perpetual Pain by Vanessa Granger

The hardest thing I've ever had to do,
Not a single soul will ever have a clue.

The only person: I needed his help,
He didn't hear my cry or hear my yelp.

He was never there for support,
That's why I had no choice, but to abort.

All he thought of was himself and money,
And not of the special someone in my tummy.

He never thought about it and never cared,
I never felt so alone and so scared.

I thought that we'd be in this together,
Through the best and worst of weather.

I turned to my parents for warmth and love,
But all I got was a great big shove.

Everyone telling me what was the right choice,
I could not even hear my own voice.

I know that I am the one to blame,
I guess I just thought it was a game.

I didn't mean to, I just didn't think,
I didn't know my life would change in just one blink.

Every time something bad happens, I see,
It is God getting back at me.

I have thought about ending my life,
I raised my arms, holding a knife.

But what these scars will never bring back,
Is my child I forced into pitch black.

I wouldn't have regretted having my child,
Just for the chance to see it smile.

I will always regret killing my baby,
Because I'll always wonder....hum....maybe!?!?