They remind me of you.
As I sit here alone in the white and grey haze, I remember you. I remember what I wanted. I remember what I can never have.
I laugh mirthlessly as the cool mist envelope me and touch my skin. It was you who I didn't know...but somehow it was only you who reminded me of the rain. And the rain reminded me of you. Why did I have to see you in the first place?
Sheer mockery indeed. Life never gave me what I thought I wanted. What I thought I needed. It was just my destiny to see you.
And nothing more.
Another mistake I've made.
Another lesson I learn the hard way.
The drops of water steadily got bigger and dropped faster. The soft caressing mist turned to rain. I don't shiver as the cold drops sting my skin and burn my soul.
I guess it just reflects what I feel inside.
Was it because you weren't there? Was it because I regret not trying to know you?
Maybe. Maybe I'll never know. We were strangers. Are. Will always be.
I would never know if it would make a difference...if I knew you, and you knew me.
I guess I'll never know too.
My hands tried to catch the rain as they fall. I watched them with mingling hopelessness and resignation.
Each drop that fell on my hand slipped away gently in a slow, even rhythm. I can't let them stay there. I can't keep them as they slip away, one by one and leaving me with the emptiness I've always had for company.
It speaks for us.
I regret a lot of things. I guess I'll be thankful that they don't make me sad. The emptiness fails to wrap in me melancholia. I remember you, that's all. I just won't remember you forever. I know I can't. I know I'll never see you again.
I'll just let the rain wash away the weariness I feel. The bitter regret.
The drops ran down as I turn my face to the endless sky above me. I close my eyes as I feel the lingering cold filled with the pain that stings me.
I promise that I won't let the tears join the rain as it descends from my eyes.
I won't cry for you. Not now. I'll just remember you today.
Under heaven's tears.