[ddavis]

i know... a lot of life stories are usally quite boring. but let me assure you mine is not... it is one that will make you sick in the stomache once you read it. reason why i wrote a life story of myself was for an english assingment... to write about a course of events in our lives, while reffering to a book we were reading titled: "The Odyssey". anyhow, before i turned mine in, i let this one girl i just met proofread it. to my surprise, she cried when she was done and hugged me while tears dripped from her.

that's how sad my life is.

i'm not hear to preach about it, or make you feel sorry for me, i just want to let people know. i need no guidance from anyone for i now know it is my destiny to be... the way i am.

anyhow, below is the link to my life story. may it be insightful to whoever wanders their eyes against it.
http://diehard.ath.cx/~scallenger/My%20Life%20Story.doc

[Cadfael]

I have a son who is autistic... and I have seen so much of your story in his. I am not suggesting you are autistic my friend... but like him you are 'different'. He has reached the age now were he is realising something is differnet about him... and you have just broken my heart... but you have given me hope as well.

I salute you brother... and I would be honoured to be your friend... if you will have me?

[ddavis]

sure i wouldn't mind at all. http://www.sffworld.com/ubb/smile.gif but internet friends make me sad becaus i can never see them in person. but what the hell. http://www.sffworld.com/ubb/smile.gif

[This message has been edited by ddavis (edited May 20, 2002).]

[sueVee]

I read your story. I was a military brat. I went to 15 schools in 12 years. So I think I understand a little about being lonely. It will get better.

[Loque]

i too recognised some of my life in your story, i had a similar experience with someone pretending to like me while all the while they were laughing at me behind my back, sucks doesnt it? sad thing is there are people like that out there and it worries me that i allow experiences like that to force me into myself more and all i can say is by all means be careful, but dont become to cynical. Good luck.

[wolfshead]

It will get better. my childhood and youth were really lonely too.Now that I am older, I am GLAD I never fit in with the crowd. the experiences were hard at the time but they made me stronger and a deeper thinker than those who 'breezed' through adolescence, who were the popularity queens of the high school years. Many of them, when i go back to my old home town, look basically like raddled old women--old beyond their years, and many of them have done very little with their lives...among other things, my 'different' interests (which were so scorned) have lead me into worldwide travel, study,having fiction/poetry published, running conventions, meeting celebrities, performing on stage and finding greater personal happiness than I would have ever believed possible as a teen.
So hang in there....

[Loque]

yes, i dont think it's a coincidence that a lot of famous people had troubled childhoods.

[Thom]

ddavid, I was just wondering if you could give me permission to print your story and show it to my french teacher. We just finished some discussions and studies on children isolation.

So if you could give me your answer. I'll totally respect it.

Don't worry it will get better because someday they will realize that you're a better person than those self-absorbed dumb ass.

[ddavis]

thanks for all your replies, i am feeling a little better.

oh, and thom, you can share my story to your french teacher. but you must SWEAR not to alter it in any way or put your name on it. hey, i'm percautious, i cant help it.

btw... why would a french teacher be discussing isolation issues?

anyhow, yes, go ahead and print it out.

[Bardos]

Do what you really like, ddavis: that's what is important. Nothing happens by chance. Sometimes (always?) we choose a path without knowing that we chose it. Weird, huh? Well, it is. Trust me, I know.

I read somewhere (in one of Paul Coehlo's books, I think) that, when you're meant for something, the whole universe cospires so that you get there. ;) (That "something" doesn't have to be an important seat, a celebrity; it just has to be *you*.)

Follow that path; it'll lead you true.