Dawnstorm
November 9th, 2004, 01:55 PM
I'm forcing myself to write this, because it's something I want to get across, but it's hard for me to get through with it, because I currently suffer from...
...Word Weariness.
It's not a condition that's new to me, and - usually - I just take time off playing video games, listening to music (or playing the piano - not very well, I should add, there's a reason I've put this into brackets...). However, it's the first time word weariness hits me while I'm participating in web-based activities... or try to...
During my bouts of word weariness writing is hard, and - to a lesser extent - reading is. It's probably a specific form of writer's block, but it goes a bit beyond that. When I'm in word weariness mode, putting content into writing - but especially speech - is hard, as there's a cloud of linguistic expressions in my head, and everything gets mixed up.
Example: My mother tongue (and the language I communicate on a daily basis) is German. The language I write stories & poetry & stuff in is English. (Don't ask why, I don't know...). Today, I replied to someone, as I got what she was talking about: "Ich sehe," which is a literal translation of "I see," but makes no sense whatsoever in German in this context. I do not normally mix up the two languages in such a way, but when in word weariness mode distinctions break down (any distinctions, not just language barriers), and I start confusing myself no end. Result: I can't focus on language: writing, reading, and - especially - verbally responding (arguing a point, editing/feed-back of texts...).
To this effect: I've been writing a response to the "Moral views of authors" thread in the fantasy section, but I've scrapped it, because it didn't make sense. I've written up a piece for the "Porcellaine egg" thread in the Collab section; I didn't post it, because (1) I think it sucks (may have potential, but still...) and (2) because I doubt I could follow up... Any other projects I'm involved in... my eyes glaze over.
So why am I writing this? (And actually posting it, if you read this...):
1. People who may expect me to... let's say... contribute should know why.
2. I wonder, if anybody else has ever encountered similar problems.
3. I want to make a noise, so my virtual self doesn't just disappear.
4. I want to see if I'm still capable of being coherent, if I put my mind to it.
There you go... If you read all the way down here, you're either interested or brave. In any case, thanks.
;)
...Word Weariness.
It's not a condition that's new to me, and - usually - I just take time off playing video games, listening to music (or playing the piano - not very well, I should add, there's a reason I've put this into brackets...). However, it's the first time word weariness hits me while I'm participating in web-based activities... or try to...
During my bouts of word weariness writing is hard, and - to a lesser extent - reading is. It's probably a specific form of writer's block, but it goes a bit beyond that. When I'm in word weariness mode, putting content into writing - but especially speech - is hard, as there's a cloud of linguistic expressions in my head, and everything gets mixed up.
Example: My mother tongue (and the language I communicate on a daily basis) is German. The language I write stories & poetry & stuff in is English. (Don't ask why, I don't know...). Today, I replied to someone, as I got what she was talking about: "Ich sehe," which is a literal translation of "I see," but makes no sense whatsoever in German in this context. I do not normally mix up the two languages in such a way, but when in word weariness mode distinctions break down (any distinctions, not just language barriers), and I start confusing myself no end. Result: I can't focus on language: writing, reading, and - especially - verbally responding (arguing a point, editing/feed-back of texts...).
To this effect: I've been writing a response to the "Moral views of authors" thread in the fantasy section, but I've scrapped it, because it didn't make sense. I've written up a piece for the "Porcellaine egg" thread in the Collab section; I didn't post it, because (1) I think it sucks (may have potential, but still...) and (2) because I doubt I could follow up... Any other projects I'm involved in... my eyes glaze over.
So why am I writing this? (And actually posting it, if you read this...):
1. People who may expect me to... let's say... contribute should know why.
2. I wonder, if anybody else has ever encountered similar problems.
3. I want to make a noise, so my virtual self doesn't just disappear.
4. I want to see if I'm still capable of being coherent, if I put my mind to it.
There you go... If you read all the way down here, you're either interested or brave. In any case, thanks.
;)