http://www.sffworld.com/forums/blog.php?14517-Maiablackwolf en Wed, 22 May 2013 19:39:38 GMT vBulletin 25 http://www.sffworld.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.sffworld.com/forums/blog.php?14517-Maiablackwolf http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?126-Stolen! Thu, 28 May 2009 21:02:29 GMT (Zelika Loophole Blog #11)

Hahaha! Look what I did! I found Zelika's journal! She will be so mad when she sees this... but it's worth it! I am tricky.

--Nisrah of the House of Il Aran ]]> Maiablackwolf http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?126-Stolen! http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?120-A-Full-Day Fri, 22 May 2009 21:58:00 GMT (Zelika Loophole Blog #10) Just after I left to play tag with Nisrah and Sunara, we came across Hem, Saliman, and Irc. Hem joined in the game almost immediately, and Mik met us and also played. Nisrah got in trouble when he bumped into a big, brutish man. Hem helped him but the thug kept... (Zelika Loophole Blog #10)

Just after I left to play tag with Nisrah and Sunara, we came across Hem, Saliman, and Irc. Hem joined in the game almost immediately, and Mik met us and also played.

Nisrah got in trouble when he bumped into a big, brutish man. Hem helped him but the thug kept attacking us, and he called me a whore. Luckily Saliman arrived and freezed him. Sunara went and found another Bard and they took the man somewhere after he was let out of the spell and attacked again.

Hem did a lot of healing and he was tired, so I rested with him. We ended up figuring out that we loved each other, and then we went back to Irak'gar's temporary house. He arrived a bit after and invited Saliman and Hem and Irc. Nisrah took a liking to Irc, which is good since Hem and I were busy talking to each other.

Mik didn't like it at first, but he seems to be okay now. He even painted a picture of us. He is always unpredictable.

Anyways. We ate dinner and Hem and I talked a lot, and kissed a lot too, and now we are both writing. I do not know what we will do after.

As it is easy to see, I am no longer confused about love. It is a fluttering feeling when you do not know what else to feel, but it is a spreading warmth when you do believe that you love the person you are with.

I will stop writing now, I cannot sit around and do nothing! I am too happy. Perhaps it was all that sugar in the pastries we had for dessert...

~Zelika of the House of Il Aran ]]> Maiablackwolf http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?120-A-Full-Day http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?79-What-Has-Happened Tue, 31 Mar 2009 20:52:31 GMT (Forgive any misinterpretations; the Jussack language is very different from Annaren and the translator has done her best to keep the author's words intact.)

This, apparently, is a type of written thing. I can not write well, but ever since my return I have been learning more.

The past month has been immensely confusing. First I go along with our tyrant of a leader, Amusk, and some other men, since they were sent by whom he calls 'Master'. I told them I answered to no master and they laughed and hit me. I learned later that they spoke of the Elidhu living close to here. We set off and attack what I think are two Pilanel, and I am ordered not to kill the girl one. So I do not. I am not the kind to kill without reason like the others anyways.

I was in charge of our new prisoner, that girl, and it was embarrassing to be considered a caretaker of a person instead of a warrior. Especially a woman, although I often wonder why it should make a difference, especially when the girl (named Maerad) seemed so much stronger than me or the others, or even Amusk. He knew it, too. He was afraid.

We dropped her off at the palace place and were moving back when wolves attacked us, and our dogs turned on us also. They killed all but me, though I thought I would die too.

When I got back, people were happy that Amusk was gone, and so they wanted me to be leader. I told them I was too young. (I was only eighteen summers old then, and for extra information I am nineteen summers now) But they taught me more and treated me with respect, which was new for me, since I was low-ranking. I ended up knowing how to read and write and do basic mathematical things, though I still feel unintelligent. Ever since Maerad told me of another world I have hungered to go there. A place without snow I can hardly imagine!

For now, however, I continue to stay at my home. I only hope that something more will come out of my life, because it is not enough to me right now.

-Nim

(Author's note: It appears that Jussacks have no concept of parts of name pertaining to location of birth or occupation.) ]]> Maiablackwolf http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?79-What-Has-Happened http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?73-Anxious-But-Dealing-With-It-And-Also-Confused-By-Love Sat, 28 Mar 2009 16:47:39 GMT (Zelika Loophole Blog #9) Why has Hem not arrived yet?! It has been weeks and there is no sign of him! I am worried that he maybe encountered trouble. What if a dogsoldier or something else killed him? And after all our worrying for each other! If he takes three more days I will go and look for... (Zelika Loophole Blog #9)

Why has Hem not arrived yet?! It has been weeks and there is no sign of him! I am worried that he maybe encountered trouble. What if a dogsoldier or something else killed him? And after all our worrying for each other! If he takes three more days I will go and look for him myself!

He told me of his older sister Maerad. What kind of a sister would not go and guide her little brother?! I would do that for Nisrah any day.

But there is good news. Mik is acting a little normaler now that he is living like a normal person, instead of traveling all the time. He still becomes angry and runs away or throws things, or becomes sad and cries and needs somebody to hug him, but not like he did while we were moving.

Also, Sunara and Nisrah do not seem to be very different. They did not know well what they did as Curs, as they said they vaguely remembered calling themselves, and they feel guilty but they cannot remember actual killing people or creatures. But I am happy that Nisrah remembers seeing me. He said it was misty but he knew my face and wanted for a second to go with me. He is as well not sick anymore.

Sunara is learning how to be a Bard now. It it strange to think that there is a Bard in a warrior family but I heard another Bard telling her that it grows strong unexpectedly in famlies and goes extinct unexpectedly in others. I thinked about if me or Nisrah had children when we were older, would they be Bards like Sunara? She would probably have Bard kids, I think, or she might be a freak accident. Although that is not a nice thing to call one's sister. So I take that back. But the point remains.

Now my thoughts turn to love, something somewhat new to me. I love my family of course, and I sort of love Irak'gar as parent since I have no parents now, but I have never thinked of baby-making love until recently. Of course I am too young to do it at this point, but in the future, maybe. I am not as crazy as I was before, though Sunara says I am still a rash fool. However she says it in play, so I do not know whether not she means it.

If he stops being so unpredictable I maybe would want to be with Mik, although I still feel that I betray Hem. But I maybe do not even know what that kind of love is. When I think of them both I feel light and ridiculous and I do not know what to say to Mikerh because I do not want to say something wrong. He is too preoccupied to love me, I know that much.

As for Hem, I am not so sure. He seemed to maybe love me. I thinked that I love him as we journeyed but now that I doubt I know what it is I maybe just love him as a friend. But I maybe love Mik as a friend too.

I am confusing myself to no end and I am moving nowhere! Forget it all. I am going to play tag with Nisrah and Sunara.

~Zelika of the House of Il Aran ]]> Maiablackwolf http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?73-Anxious-But-Dealing-With-It-And-Also-Confused-By-Love http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?44-A-Letter Mon, 16 Mar 2009 21:23:26 GMT (Zelika Loophole Blog #8) I sent a letter to Hem today, since a man named Nelac told me he had recently seen him there. I met Nelac because he was giving Sunara a private lesson about Bard things. He does not teach much anymore, he says he is getting too old, but he taught my sister a little. He... (Zelika Loophole Blog #8)

I sent a letter to Hem today, since a man named Nelac told me he had recently seen him there. I met Nelac because he was giving Sunara a private lesson about Bard things. He does not teach much anymore, he says he is getting too old, but he taught my sister a little. He said he came from Innail and I asked if Hem was there and he said yes. So I sent a letter. Here is what I writed:

Hem,

I have arrived in Lirigon. I am staying in a spare Bardhouse because my friend, Irak'gar, is a Bard, and my sister has the Speech. I want desperately to see you though I know it would take a while to travel to here.

Is my Annaren good? Irak'gar has taught me over the trip. My sentences are basic, he says, but I have good grammar. He still has to correct my spelling though. He says it would be impossible to read otherwise.

Come, please, Hem. You must meet Nisrah and Sunara, my brother and sister, and Mikerh and Irak'gar, my friends from Den Raven. They are not evil like the Nameless One was! Mikerh especially is very friendly, usually. Irak'gar watches over us. He says he is forty years old, which I do not understand, because he looks twenty or thirty years. Perhaps it is a Bard reason.

There is much we must talk about and do and see together, and I probably bore you with the letter. But come.

~Zelika of the House of Il Aran

PS, why did you think I was dead?

I hope that this letter makes him come to Lirigon to see me. Honestly I am worried that Hem and Mikerh are going to not like each other. Hem is my friend and Mikerh is very unpredictable, and sometimes violent. Hem might be worried for me and Nisrah. (Sunara is older than Mikerh and lots stronger)

There is much that I anticipate and much that I worry for. But with luck all will go well and I will see him soon.

~Zelika of the House of Il Aran ]]> Maiablackwolf http://www.sffworld.com/forums/entry.php?44-A-Letter