Maerad: Mixed Emotions
by, March 11th, 2009 at 02:09 PM (978 Views)
I feel so alone.
I don't know why I feel alone, but I do. I feel like I'm swimming in a vast ocean with no other form of life in it; no animals or plants. Only me.
I know there's no reason to feel this way, especially when so many people care about me: Saliman, Silvia, Hem...
Every time I think about Cadvan and me, I get a flutter in my chest, like there's a butterfly trapped inside my heart.
When I fell in love with Arkan, I didn't feel this way, I mean, yes, there was still the fluttering butterfly, but that love felt colder, sharper instead of soft and gentle.
Is this love?
I need someone to explain how I feel.
I need someone to explain the Way of the Heart.