The pain of rejection runs deep
by, March 12th, 2009 at 05:27 PM (655 Views)
It is cold in my world, as cold as I feel now.
There is a gaping hole in my heart, where I bury all my hurt and pain. Maerad's betrayal nearly killed me, though I cannot die. I have not felt such strong emotions for such a long time, and they had never been as intense as they are now.
Will my heart ever heal? It seems not; not now. The wounds in my heart are fresh, and as painful as the day she left me. I know she resents me for holding her for so long; for keeping her from her beloved. The knowledge only makes the wound deeper.
Can an Elidhu feel such a trivial and petty emotion as jealousy? I am sure that I feel the pangs of jealousy now.
Are Elidhu capable of such things as love? Before I was certain in my answer. Now, I do not know what to make of it.
Will I ever get another chance at love?[/COLOR]